Author: Jade C. Jamison
What if you discover the man you want is toxic?
She tasted a little bit of heaven with him, and now they’ve gone through hell and back, but can their relationship take anymore?
Valerie Quinn is a naïve college freshman when she meets on-the-rise rock star Ethan Richards. He’s an idealistic, handsome, reckless young man, but he’s captured her heart. She doesn’t give up on him and eventually his walls crumble down. By the time Valerie has given herself to him completely, she discovers he’s damaged and may be beyond help. Can she save Ethan and their relationship before he implodes, or will he self-destruct and take her with him?
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I was excited to get started on this one for a few reasons… one main one being that it is about a rock group! and well I am a sucker for a rock star that is for sure. Then when I saw how long it was I was also excited. Most of the books I have been reading have been about half the length probably. I was just excited to start it.
I got started and LOVED it. There is so much that goes on and happens and I was so happy to know that I was going to get a lot of these characters. Although yes the book was ultimately about Val there were others who were very important in the book. Those being the guys in the band. There were moments that did have me laughing with them all together. I liked seeing how the relationships all started and how they developed over time. Getting to see them also grow from a garage band to being well known was also fun because most books that are about the rock stars they are already famous and well known. This is more the road they are on to stardom and everything along the way as they are working their way up that stardom ladder.
There are so many moments that Val has to profess her feelings for Ethan and well let me just say that I hated him by the time this book was done but that feeling I had of hatred for him started off pretty early on, and for those who read this one will understand exactly what I mean when I say this! I immediately fell in LOVE with Brad as soon as we met him. He is much more my ‘type’ of book boyfriend. 🙂 I loved the other guys too! they were so sweet, well when they wanted to be. Then there is Jet/Clay. Well he is just YUM!
Anywhoo… It took me longer then I wanted to finish this one because I had to make dinner for everyone every night and all. There are parts you will get to and you will NOT be able to put it down because you want to just know what is going to happen. I had a few moments like that. I constantly have my iPad with me so I can read any free moment I have. So once I got towards the ending of it there was NOTHING that was going to stop me from finishing. I think I even yelled at my kids to leave me alone! haha It is such an emotional ride, you feel Val’s pain, her hurt, her heartache, her happiness, her love, her confusion, and her joy. I think because it is written so well and there is so much to it you get to build this connection with her. Getting to follow her through her ‘purity’ and innocence and watch her get to grow and become a woman.
I do know that for some this book will not be a big hit because of the frustration that comes along with it. Because you can ask Nikki I was sending her messages as I read over the things that were getting me so mad. It all came down to some of the choices that Val made. I wanted to yell at her so many times or slap some sense into her. The sad thing about it all is I have known people who have made those same decisions in their life over and over. So if you are easily irritated by someone who keeps making the same mistake over and over a few times then this may be a hard one for you to get through but if you stick it out it ends great! Well at least I think it did.
I do have to agree with Nikki though the only issue that I had with the book was the past and present parts. I mean as you get closer to the ending you will see how they connect but for me I didn’t see why it was needed. I felt like it gave away stuff that I was really hoping to not find out till later. But for me that was one of the only downfalls.
It is a ride for sure and I am definitely going to be looking into her other rocker books because well once you read a rock star book you will never be the same.
Here are a few of her other rock star books:
“Rational or not, I loved Ethan. I knew it was stupid, but it didn’t matter. Stupid or not, I wanted him. Part of me knew he was damaged…deeply damaged…and I think that part of me also wanted to try to save him.”
”So, seriously… do I call you Clayton or Jet?”
He got a huge grin on his face. “Well, it depends.”
“Do you want me sweet or dirty?”
~Interview With Jet~
I am standing backstage watching Jet onstage with his band Last Five Seconds, oh he looks good up there. That is for sure. I look over when I hear a noise and see Brad and the guys. Ohhh I would love to just spend a little time with him… but right now I need to focus on my man at hand… JET. I am so glad I was able to get back here to watch him play. They finish up and start walking off stage. He walks over towards me and says hey, I ask him where he wants to do the interview he asked if I wouldn’t mind doing it on the tour bus. That he wanted to shower really fast before we got started. I am in awe, the sweat dripping down his face has me in a trance, I have to fight the urge to lean in to smell him and lick the drop of sweat running down his neck. I just shake my head and he tells me to follow him. He has a smirk on his face. I guess I am not so great at hiding how he has affected me. We walk out to the bus and he tells me to take a seat that he will be out in a few minutes then we can get started. I find a spot and sit down and see him walk into what I am guessing is the bathroom to shower. About three minutes have passed when the bus door gets thrown open and there is a bunch of guys and girl that walk in. I am not sure what to do at this point. I didn’t even think about everyone else, I have heard what happens after shows and well I am really not wanting to sit here and see what will probably be play out in front of me. The girls all start kissing each other. YUP I don’t want to watch live porn. I reach over and touch one of the guys’ arms, he turns to me and gets a huge grin on his face then pulls me onto his lap. I let him know that is NOT going to happen and ask if there is a quiet place I can wait for Jet. He almost looks hurt that I didn’t want him, but stands and tells me to follow him and he walks me to the back of the bus and opens the door to bedroom and tells me to just wait there then walks out.
I sit on the end of the bed and wait. I am not sure this is smart but I don’t want to be out there with the soon to be orgy I am sure. So I suck it up and just wait. The door handle turns and the it opens and what I see in front of me is heart stopping. I guess he didn’t take any clothes in with him because he only has a towel wrapped around his waist when he walks in and sees me sitting on the bed. Oh great he is going to think I am a groupie!
B ~ Ohh My God!!! I am so sorry! Someone told me to wait for you in here if I didn’t want to get ‘involved’ with what was going on out there. *I say pointing to the door towards the front of the bus* Is it always like that after shows? I mean I have heard that rock stars are all man whores, but I swear I am not here sitting on the bed waiting for you like one of your little groupies..
J ~ (smiles…) Eh, I guess sometimes we’re man whores when we’re on tour, but not always and not all of us. Don’t worry about it. Not everyone’s comfortable with that scene, and I’m assuming you really did want an interview.
B ~ (Oh lord those dimples!!) Okay so yeah, you want me to step out so you can get dressed? Then we can get started?
I really don’t want him to put his clothes on but I think it would be smart if he did.
J ~ Sure, you want to go back out there? (grining) If you wanna turn around, I’ll just throw some jeans on.
B ~ (I turn back around when he says he is good and all he did was literally put on a pair of jeans, they are not even buttoned, then he comes over and sits right next to me ohhh lord, must keep it together! NO TOUCHING!) Alrighty so, lets get started then. So we all meet you the night Valerie goes to the concert with Ethan and you noticed her right away. What did you think the first time you saw her?
J ~ Wow. She was gorgeous, even then. A little young, sure, but on fire. You could see how much she loved the music, and I found that really attractive. She was decked out all metal, her clothes, you know, but she looked so…innocent, if that makes sense. No tattoos, no piercings, fresh faced, looked like she was fresh out of Catholic school. But she was with Ethan, and I kind of knew him, because his band was just starting up, and when I saw her with him…I don’t know. I was intrigued. I noticed her. I didn’t forget her.
B ~ So at what point did you think…I am going to put the invite out to her so she knows if she wants me I am here?
J ~ Well, I might not have forgotten about her, but I didn’t actively think about her. Then…Jesus. When I saw her at a show about a year later and found out she was in Ethan’s band? Fuck. That’s when I “put out the invite.” She looked a whole lot hotter then, and finding out she was in a band, wow. I hit her with every little bit of Jet charm I had…and it obviously worked. Well, not that night, but you know all about the whole douchy Ethan “secret boyfriend” bullshit. Still…I got under her skin, and that was my whole intent that night. I can be patient when I need to be.
B ~ I have to say that when she actually did show up to your room I was so excited! I wanted things to get hot and heavy and you definitively did NOT disappoint! What was going through your head when you saw her at your door that first time?
J ~ Wanna know a little secret? I didn’t know if she’d show or not, but I figured after extending the invitation, I’d better get my ass up to my room, just in case. I was considering finding something to watch on TV when I heard the knock on my door. I took my shirt off before I answered it, and I took a few deep breaths. I needed to act cool when I answered the door. The beers I drank earlier that night helped. (Chuckling.) When I saw her there, though? I thought, “It’s about damn time.”
I can hear moaning and someone out there is very close to climax from what it sounds like. I look toward the door and just listen. It is kind of hot to hear all of this happening right there, and if I wanted to I could open that door and I will be sure to see a room of naked bodies entwined. I can feel the flutter in my belly and the heat rush between my legs. I take a deep breath and cross my legs to try and stop the urge to touch myself but just that gesture causes some friction and a small moan to escape. Man it just got like a thousand degrees hotter in here! I clear my throat and try to get back on track. I look back over to Jet and the corner of his mouth is tip up in a slight grin.
B ~ Sorry, that is a little distracting. *I say looking at the door again* Okay so your name is Clayton and you had told Valerie that Clay is the sweet and Jet is the dirty…who would you say you are majority of the time?
J ~ Good question. Clay has never been onstage. Ever. And he hardly ever meets women. In fact, the older I get, the less Clay makes an appearance. Well…Clay visits mom, and Clay is a dad. Jet never sees the important females in my life. Really, though…Jet’s probably more me nowadays than Clay.
B ~ So how many groupies request Clay vs. Jet? That has to be a hard one. I would say Clay out in public, Jet in the bedroom! *winking at him*
J ~ I don’t tell many groupies about Clay. They usually just know Jet from who I am onstage, and that’s usually who they want. I don’t ever introduce them to Clay. (Rolls his eyes) He’s too sensitive.
B ~ It killed me when you guys had the talk about how things were between the two of you…All I knew was I didn’t want her to go back to that douche bag and I knew that was where it was headed. When did you know what you guys had was only friendship with sexual attraction?
J ~ God, I don’t know. Probably a month or two after we were back home. If we’d spent the rest of our lives on tour, I don’t think we ever would have figured it out…and that would have been okay. There’s something about music that just charges me up…and when the music’s live…there’s nothing like it. Anyway, we got home and had all this awkward life bullshit to get through. It took a while…just kind of getting to know each other for real before we figured it out…and even then I think we denied it for a while.
B ~ What did you think when you found out about them getting married?
J ~ I was pissed. I mean…I didn’t know their whole history or anything, but I did know what Val had shared with me, and he was a real dickwad to her, you know? Val’s too sweet. She doesn’t deserve that shit, and I said it a lot of times…that I wanted to knock his teeth down his throat. But she said she loved him, said she was happy…who was I to argue?
B ~ So is there a special girl in your life other then the one most important one?
J ~ Nope…Jasmine’s pretty much it. I’m not ready for anything real…not right now. We’re on the road too much, really enjoying our first taste at fame. It’ll happen someday. Maybe. I’m not worried about it. Relationships are overrated.
The moans are getting louder and louder…damn do these guys not stop? I try to not listen but I can’t avoid it. Curiosity gets the best of me and I stand up from the bed and go to the door I crack it open just to see what is going on out there. I am instantly slapped with the smell of sex and the moaning and groaning just got louder I slam the door shut and turn to see him standing right behind me, I hear him chuckle and ask me if I like what I saw. I turn away trying to hide the blush creeping over my face.
B ~ So what is your favorite sexual position?
J ~ (Chuckles.) Forward, aren’t you? (Thinking.) I think it’d have to be standing up. Beyond that, I don’t give much of a shit. Front, back, it’s all good. Well, that’s Jet. Clay’s a little tamer…
ohhhh thats the stuff….
B ~ What part of a womans body is your biggest turn on?
J ~ Mmmm…I think I’m a breast man…but I like a nice pair of legs too.
B ~ What is the one thing a girl has to do to get you to turn into a puddle at our feet? *licking my lower lip*
This I want to know… what is his sexual weakness?? Damn those sounds for tuning my mind to sex I was trying to be good and not take it there.
J ~ (Smiles.) I think I’m pretty much like any guy. You touch me in the right spot, it’s all over.
B ~ If there is a girl and you want their attention what do you do to get it?
J ~ It’s pretty easy nowadays. Jet doesn’t have a hard time getting a girl’s attention, but they’re drawn to my guitar and the tattoos don’t hurt either. It’s probably been four or five years since I had to work at getting a girl’s attention. I usually have to push them away lately. (Smiles.) Not to sound cocky or anything.
B ~ Well I think I am pretty much done, maybe I should go, you might want to go out and join your friends. I just don’t know how to get out of here without feeling like I need to bleach my eyes. Is there another way out of here? A window I can climb out of maybe?
J ~ (Laughing) If you want to stay with me a while, I can escort you out the front once everyone’s asleep. I’m sure we can find something to do to entertain ourselves for a while…
B ~ *smirking* Just so you know, I am not one of those girls,*pointing to the door* you are gonna have to work for it hunny! *winks at him*
Jade C. Jamison was born and raised in Colorado, moved from one city/town to the next, and she’s decided she likes it so much she wants to stay…although travel is not out of the question. She lives in a big town in Colorado (not unlike Winchester!) with her husband and four children. She is working on becoming a crazy cat lady. Okay, so maybe not.
Still want more? Jade has a bachelor’s degree in English Literature and Theater, a master’s degree in English, and a master of fine arts in Creative Writing. Obviously, she loves school and the student loan folks love her. She works in human services by day, teaches English and creative writing at night, and—in between playing soccer mom and community leader—writes like a fiend. Someday soon, she’ll narrow it down to just writing, but let’s get all those kids offto college first.
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